When did things start getting hard?

The last month or so I have been struggling with this whole parenting malarkey!
I was trying to work out what’s changed to make things feel so hard!

1. Work not being very nice at the moment causing me more stress.

2. My child seems to have hit terrible twos and doesn’t want to listen, laughs at you when you tell him off and does not want to sleep in his bed but ours instead!

3. My child has been so easy to look after and bring up that now things have got a little difficult I think he is out of control!

It’s probably a mixture of all of the above but mainly number 3. I have just had it too easy and now Ethan is testing the boundaries I seem to think I have list control of everything!
OH doesn’t help matters when he gives in to Ethan a lot of the time. Then you have the fact that I can’t leave Ethan to cry when he doesn’t want to go in his bed because OH needs to sleep as he works nights!
It’s a catch 22 but we have to start dealing with these issues before they set in too deep. Just wish OH would see if from my point of view and help the situation!
I have started looking for a new job which will hopefully be days so I can’t stop doing shifts and get into a proper routine, hopefully be happier as I will be doing what I enjoy!
Next step is to gain control of my child before he lets himself out and becomes the drunk on the park bench! Lol

Thanks for reading x

Holiday to Do List

I’m off work next week and have a huge to do list. I thought if I wrote it out on here it would make me actually do the stuff I need to get done.

1. Get a new tyre for the car
2.Get car cleaned ready for Friday
3. Finish painting the Kitchen (we started this before Christmas!)
4. The big one! Take the side off the cot and get the baby to stay in his bed!
5. Sort out baby’s room so he can’t destroy it once he is able to get out his cot!
6. Sell all junk on Ebay.

I think that’s all but sure other things will creep up!

When Life Goes in a New Direction

So my last post was about me going to work part time and the OH going to work away! Well exciting news this is not happening but OH has told me I can have another BABY!!! Yes you read that right we are going to have another BABY!!! Mad I know!

I am a bit disappointed that OH is not going to take his new job as this means my dreams or working part time were shattered but at the same time my wish for another baby has come true! I guess you cant have it all.

So I have worked out that by the time we have another baby Ethan will be 3 so we will get 15 hours free at nursery so will only have to pay for one child as they will not be in nursery for more than that. We don’t want to try until April time tho as I don’t want a Christmas baby and have decided Feb/March would be good as these months we don’t have any Birthdays!! 

See I have it all planned out! Just need to save some money for while I am on maternity leave! Starting with changing debt consolidation companies to save money and pay off our debt quicker hopefully! then to look at gas, electric etc

Oh I am so excited, just need to make sure no one from work or my family read this as we haven’t told anyone! 

Change of Plan

I hope you all had a good Christmas, We certainly did.

I know my posts are few and far between but soon things will change!

 

2013 is going to be quite different with me and oh swapping roles a little! This scares me alot!

Oh has a new job working away with his Dad which in turn brings us lots more money and less worries, it all make sense really. The down side is that he will be away for 2 weeks at a time then back for 4 days.

If you know our story my oh is really the main child carer, he works a night shift then picks Ethan up from nursery when he finishes. So I’m a little scared about becoming a single parent coz really that’s what I will become! I am going to carry on working 3 days a week as I love my job and still need to get adult interaction! Plus oh said he will no pay for me to stay at home while he works his arse off

I was thinking the other day that it will be nice to spend so much time with my baby as they do grow up so fast and he has become a daddies boy which upsets me sometimes.

So as long as work will let me work 3 days a week this is the new plan! I’m sacred and excited at the same time, I just don’t know how I will cope on my own. 

Hope you all have a great new year what ever your plans and thanks for reading x

Feeding The Ducks with our New Friends

We went to feed the ducks with our new friends. My Friend brought the kids some bird seed for the ducks.

It was very wet and muddy!

I didn’t manage to get a photo of Ethan falling over in the mud and chasing the ducks as I was worried he was going to run into the pond!

This week I am linking to Country Kids over @Coombe Mill.

Friendships

How do you know when you have found a good friend? What makes a good friend?

I seem to make friends with people be friends with them a few year then lose contact with them or they disappear! I have made a new friend, no I have found an old friend (who was once my arch enemy!)

I have spoken about my friend before , we went to secondary school together that’s where we met, she worked with me, lived at my parents house then we rented a house off my Dad when we was 18. Being 18 and having you own house oh the dramas and drunken shenanigans that went on! Looking back this was all around 7 years ago!

(I am sure that I will do a post on our shenanigans as this progresses but they are an eye opener to who I was back then!)

Things soon turned horrible after about a year or two, you know people change and things move on! My friend was going through a tough time in her life and had gone off the rails a bit (without going in to TMI) She moved out and we both moved on. She slowly stopped talking to our group of friends and 7 years down the line we have lost contact completely.

So anyway I was reminiscing on what my life was like back then it was prefect for that time in my life, full of friends, love, alcohol and  fun what more do you want in you late teens early twenties?!

I decided I was going to contact her, after looking in all the obvious places i.e Google, Facebook and twitter I could not find her, instead I found her sister. I thought a message on Facebook wont hurt anyone so I asked if she would pass on my email and sat and waited to see what would happen not expecting much to happen!

She did contact me and today we met up after so many years of being enemy’s! Well neither of us have changed we have just grown up and had kids! It was so good and took me back to the old days.

Don’t worry I will not be reliving my youth again or social service maybe called! I just hope that something will come of our friendship again.

 

Thanks x

 

 

Silent Sunday 18.11.12

Domestic Goddess! (or not)

This week I have been off work and had some time to cook try to cook! I am trying to fall back in love with food so thought if I try to like cooking this will help the process, plus there are only so many times a week I can eat Pasta, Tuna, cheese and Mayo! ( for the record the best meal ever!)

I normally try to make sure we have a Shepard’s Pie, Lasagna and Spag Bol in the freezer from them nights you cba to cook.

this week I decided to make some burgers, chicken nuggets and meat balls to freeze. I am fed up of buying yucky food full of crap and yuck but I love to eat it!

My chicken nuggets and burgers were a bit lazy I just brought some bread crumbs to cover them in! I do normally make my own.

The burgers and meat balls are mince meat blended with an egg some mixed herbs and breadcrumbs (real ones!) Although I added some cheese to the meat balls.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Cant wait to try them! Please fell free to send me some links to your EASY recipes!

 

Thanks x

It’s My Birthday!!!

But nothing to get excited about!

I used to look forward to my birthday it used to mean a big night out getting mashed up sometimes dressing up for Halloween!

This year it’s not really been something to look forward to we have all been sick on and off for the past two weeks, I think we have had every illness going! On Friday it was my turn to get the sick bug so I spent Friday night and all day Saturday in bed. OH did bring me my early Birthday present of some flowers and a CD which was nice but I didn’t have the energy to look pleased! Bless him, but he did good!

This morning it was my turn to get up with Ethan and some how I got the worse day ever! I was expecting him to wake a round 7.30-8.30am with the clocks changing, Oh how I was wrong. He woke at 3.30am I tried to get him to sleep for an hour before i gave up and got up! So at 4.45 this morning we he was running riot around the living room. We have breakfast and went back to bed at 6am till 10am! I just kept telling myself it’s really 5.45am (it just made it sound better!)

I missed out on the only thing we had organised which was a lunch on Saturday with some of the girls from work, we will rearrange this! My other friends had not organised anything! I know its hard as most of us have kids but we could have made it out for a quite even quick drink just to celebrate. I think this was why I was not really look forward to my birthday this year as I knew I wouldn’t do much to celebrate and its my 25! Yep the BIG 25 officially a quarter of a century old!

My dad didn’t fail to please as always I have a nice shiny new camera! A gorgeous roast dinner and lush Chocolate Fudge Cake! I can now join in with all the photo linky’s without having crappy photos from my rubbish blackberry!

Next Sunday I am going to watch X factor with my bestie so this can be an outing for my birthday!

Hope you all had a great Sunday, mine was ok but nothing special!

xx